Content of the article: "“Dear CDPR:” How Cyberpunk Affected My Life"
I want to give a brief bit of context to my perspective first because I feel it’s uniquely relevant to this game.
I’m a 33-year-old veteran of the United States Marine Corps. I’ve spent my whole life with severe depression and a schizotypal personality disorder; I’ve spent around 10 years with PTSD that stems from assault and harassment from both my unit, my ex-husband, and one shady guy I met at a bar. While serving, I was diagnosed with paranoid-type schizophrenia, and it eventually led to my discharge. I can strongly remember feeling like I my mind was ‘unraveling’ as my condition was growing worse by the month. Years of therapy have helped me slow my decline—I’m no longer thought of to be “full-blown schizophrenic,” but when I don’t get enough sleep or do get too much stress, I start having really, really awful episodes.
But this isn’t a sad story. Early 2020, I was prescribed a new medication and a service dog. For the first time in my life, I’m actually ok. To top that off, I’ve worked MY BUTT off to get my life together. I have a husband now who treats me like a Queen, I’m surrounded by the best friends I’ve ever had, and I’m a wildlife biologist in graduate school working on a PhD related to cognition and behavior. I’m also an amateur philosopher because the greater questions in life have always been both the symptom and the remedy for my depression. Mortality scares me—I obsess over ‘what it means to be alive’ and ‘what it means to NOT be alive.’ And as a biologist, I feel uniquely qualified to address these unanswerable questions.
For all of these reasons, the story of Cyberpunk 2077 felt like it was specifically for me. My first playthrough was Corpo, and the ending I choose hit me hard…very hard. I cried for 3 hours that evening and then 2 more the next morning while I was working in the lab. Nobody would call the game perfect, but it’s for these reasons that I believe I’ve never been hit by a story quite as powerfully as this story.
And in a way, it has helped me tame my own demons. While many of the philosophical (and painful) questions raised by both my brain and your story can’t have any final answers, this game and V’s path has taught me that it isn’t the always answers that are the most valuable. It’s the journey that we take through life, the experiences we have along the way, and who we experience it with that really matter. Death happens, and it sucks, but we have to learn to be ok with it. We have to live life in spite of it.
So, thank you CDPR. I wouldn’t be so dramatic to say “this game saved my life,” because therapy, medication, and caring people did that. But I will say that this story has, in some small way, made my life just a little bit easier.
Mods, I don’t know if you have the power to do so, but I’d really like if the devs could get this letter. I know they’re having a rough time right now, and I have hopes that maybe it could make them smile if even for a moment.
Thank you for reading, choombas. Never fade away.
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